People said that God would open a new door for me after he locked my door.
When? Where?
I had suffered, and recovered to certain extend. I need to walk out and start my new life. But which way could I get out? I turn my head and search for it...
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Helpless
Many times, I really wish there is someone who can talk to me, and talk about the subject of my husband's death. Unfortunately, it sounds impossible. Nobody wishes to talk about those unpleasant matter, especially when it goes sensitively.
Just like tonight, when I had dinner alone, I suddenly recalled his last wording, 'honey, I can't stand any longer!' My heart was painful, hurt, but nobody know, nobody could talk about. My tears come again, though I decide not to cry any more.
Yes, I love him and still. He had plenty trouble, but I just love him.
Monday, January 3, 2011
New Year, new hope!
Dec 2010 in Lijiang, Yunan, ChinaNew year, comes with new hope, and I wish to have a fresh new life!
Cross my fingers and wish all who used to be here a very happy and prosperous 2011!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Mid Autumn Festival
Remember, HoneyIts a very beautiful evening that we used to share
The ocean is still
But you are not
Tell me
Whether you are happy some where
In Heaven
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Hong Kong, Hong Kong...
I lived in Hong Kong since the very first day of July of 1978. I migrated from Xiamen to Hong Kong with my mum and my younger brother while my papa had been already be there for more than three years.
I studied in Hong Kong and grew up in Hong Kong. Be honest, it is the most favour city that I wish to live. Unfortunately, it would be hand over to China on 1st July of 1997. Due to this special reason, like many Hong Kong people, I choose to migrate again!
I have no intention to go Singapore, in fact, my planning was go to the States, further studies and then living there. It's a big pity that my parents could not speak English and forced me to go Singapore instead. They brought me a lot of troubles by crying to the relatives until I agreed with them.
Yet, I left Hong Kong by end June of 1995, and obtained my citizenship in March of 1998 as a Singaporean.
However, I spent quite some time in Hong Kong in my very first six to seven years after immigration. My Hong Kong apartment was still there and I went home time to time, almost every month. I love the living style, and the very good food there. For me, I found Hong Kong as 'my second homeland'.
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I had not been there since 12Jan of last year because of my accident and badly hurted, until early this month. Though it was only 7days long, I enjoyed every moment I was in Hong Kong again. My favourite food, market, shopping, walking around etc. The only pity was that I found Hong Kong full of Chinese, from mainland China. So, I hard to listen to Cantonese, but Mandarin. Many shops and department stores I visited a lot in the past disappeared, and a lot of small shops selling very poor designed, poor quality, but very cheap clothes newly openned.
Yet, things changed as time goes by. So, Hong Kong changed, in the past 15years and changed even fast in the past 1year and seven months since my previous visit. It is, and forever, no longer my Hong Kong, the place I love so much and familiar to once upon the time in my life.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Secret of my destiny
When I was 25, lucky teller told me that I deemed to be a boss!
Yes, I set up my business since I was 23. Although I look for an opportunity to work for the others, but would never be long.
When I graduated from post-secondary, I had my first job working for an exhibition company as "Project & Research Office". I have no manager but directly reported to the General Manager and took care for my fellow staff. It had been ended in about 3months plus. After then, I joined a trading company in pharmaceutical field. My performance was good; however, my boss decided to immigrate to UK and sold his company to Austrian. Therefore, I decided to found a company for my own. I was 23, with 1year and six months working experience and my pocket was empty. No supporting from my families. My father said that everybody would be Li Jia Cheng (the most rich person in Hong Kong) if I got success.
I started as an indent agent, buying and selling the contract. Before 28, I firstly invested in China to found a Joint-Venture with Chinese. The factory became 100% subsidiary of My Hong Kong Company then, but closed when I was 35. I founded my second factory one year before the old factory closed, and spent 10years time in planning, fund raising, and structuring, constructing and initiating production. Unfortunately, my partners, those Investors, broke the contract and lead company cash flow broken. After over a year hard working and struggling, I almost obtained the fund from Japanese Venture Capital. It was sad that the global financial crisis happened just before we signed the Investment Agreement. My dream broke. My husband could not stand against the truth of business failure and ended his so young and beautiful life. I became a widow.
Two months and two days after my husband's death, another unexpected challenge happened to me. My staff was so stupid to drive without license and result in my badly hurt owning to their being 'so kind to take care for me'.
My backbone broke, and my body was badly hurt. They were scare to go jail; so, they run away when I was unconsciousness. The temperature was less than zero degree C along the Yangzi River side, and I almost dead as I could not move and stayed in my car alone. I woke up one hour after, tried all the way to move my body, but my head was under the seat next to the driver while my foot were on the seat. It was totally impossible for me to get out the car with my broken backbone. I called for help 5hours after waking up when somebody passing the car and be sent to hospital and had my first surgery 10hours after the accident. Four days after, a second surgery on my backbone followed. One year and a month, the third surgery carried out to take out the screws fixed my bone.
My second factory forced to close down again as I was no longer be able to manage it and the bank insisted to have their loan back. I had no option, but home to Singapore.
Now, the accident passed 1year and 4months plus. I started to look for a job in pharmaceutical field. I have very good and sounded experience, unfortunately, being a MBA and with 23years working experience as a CEO of the Company, all my applications are without any feedback. I wonder if there is any HR brave enough to employ me.
Life is moving ahead and I am always thinking what lucky teller used to tell me. Maybe, I am born to be a boss. If it is true, then, I ought to work for myself.
Yes, I set up my business since I was 23. Although I look for an opportunity to work for the others, but would never be long.
When I graduated from post-secondary, I had my first job working for an exhibition company as "Project & Research Office". I have no manager but directly reported to the General Manager and took care for my fellow staff. It had been ended in about 3months plus. After then, I joined a trading company in pharmaceutical field. My performance was good; however, my boss decided to immigrate to UK and sold his company to Austrian. Therefore, I decided to found a company for my own. I was 23, with 1year and six months working experience and my pocket was empty. No supporting from my families. My father said that everybody would be Li Jia Cheng (the most rich person in Hong Kong) if I got success.
I started as an indent agent, buying and selling the contract. Before 28, I firstly invested in China to found a Joint-Venture with Chinese. The factory became 100% subsidiary of My Hong Kong Company then, but closed when I was 35. I founded my second factory one year before the old factory closed, and spent 10years time in planning, fund raising, and structuring, constructing and initiating production. Unfortunately, my partners, those Investors, broke the contract and lead company cash flow broken. After over a year hard working and struggling, I almost obtained the fund from Japanese Venture Capital. It was sad that the global financial crisis happened just before we signed the Investment Agreement. My dream broke. My husband could not stand against the truth of business failure and ended his so young and beautiful life. I became a widow.
Two months and two days after my husband's death, another unexpected challenge happened to me. My staff was so stupid to drive without license and result in my badly hurt owning to their being 'so kind to take care for me'.
My backbone broke, and my body was badly hurt. They were scare to go jail; so, they run away when I was unconsciousness. The temperature was less than zero degree C along the Yangzi River side, and I almost dead as I could not move and stayed in my car alone. I woke up one hour after, tried all the way to move my body, but my head was under the seat next to the driver while my foot were on the seat. It was totally impossible for me to get out the car with my broken backbone. I called for help 5hours after waking up when somebody passing the car and be sent to hospital and had my first surgery 10hours after the accident. Four days after, a second surgery on my backbone followed. One year and a month, the third surgery carried out to take out the screws fixed my bone.
My second factory forced to close down again as I was no longer be able to manage it and the bank insisted to have their loan back. I had no option, but home to Singapore.
Now, the accident passed 1year and 4months plus. I started to look for a job in pharmaceutical field. I have very good and sounded experience, unfortunately, being a MBA and with 23years working experience as a CEO of the Company, all my applications are without any feedback. I wonder if there is any HR brave enough to employ me.
Life is moving ahead and I am always thinking what lucky teller used to tell me. Maybe, I am born to be a boss. If it is true, then, I ought to work for myself.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
All about Xiamen, my grandpapa con't
Grandpapa had no teacher at the very first beginning when he started to be interested in printing. It was at his childhood. One day, he found a printing guide book from the drawers of his father's coffin, he was exciting and drew on the ground. Day by day, his drawing improved a lot and he started to draw on the paper...Lotus was my grandpapa's favourite. The picture above was a product my grandpapa drew for my younger brother twenty to thirty years ago. It kept by my mum.
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